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annabel .
she's a really great student .
she was a headprefect .
she had highest for ENGLISH , SCIENCE , and CHINESE .
she got into rgs .
she was a good example to follow .

me .
i am a mediocre .
i am a headprefect .
i had/have highest for nothing .
i don't think i can even get into dhs .
i am NOT a great example to follow .

do you think i'm very great ?
NO .
i'm just someone ,
a very average someone ,
that cannot get good results .
english was my best subject .
believe me , i got 100 in p3 overall .
it dropped .
more .
now my english ; is 76/95 , paper two .
you see what happens when i SLACK ?
no .
more .

MATHS .
i USED to get astars all the time .
haahh , big wish .
i am a HUGE , UTTER loser .
my worse subject had the BEST marks .
how great .
eighty-seven , that's all .
that's my BEST .
isn't that GREAT ?
i'd DIEEEE .

VERY funny .
i was okayy at chinese .
i DROPPED , four marks in papertwo .
wth .
THIS WAS JUST THE BEST START .

science ,
was what that made me collapse .
hello ,
we're talking about 69.5/100 .
i have NEVER , EVER gotten such TERRIBLE marks for an exam .
i ought to give myself a slap .
tearfully ?
preliminary exam .
my second most important exam ,
has been CRUSHED by me .
i can't imagine what will happen in PSLE .
will i EVER get into dunmanhigh ?
much less , apply for AHS ?!?!?!?!?
saddening .
just ;;
unaccepted ,
unsatisfied .

why did i think like that ?

why did i SLACK ?

why must there be such problems ?

why did i have to put up with clji ?

why did i TRUST her ?

WHAT WAS I THINKING ?!


to camillia , daphne and shihhwee .

as you can see , three of you have good results .
but you're clever .
because even if we slack in chinese class ,
you're still able to pass with real , flying colours .
i used to be a good student ,
really ,.
those who would listen to teachers .
and not talk during lessons .
it's not your fault that i've turned into . . . a DELINQUENT .
but i HAVE to be a good student .
i can't afford not to be .
so you see . . .
i have to buck up , people .
my parents will not let me have my way with that kind of results .
so please . . .
be attentive students yourselves too .
i'm sorry .
but i've crossed the line .


this may sound hypocritical to you ,
but i don't think i ever convey to people about stuff like this all the time .
it's just that i think it's important for you to know that i'm still a person .
who wants to study .
who wants to have good friends .
who wants to have fun at the right time .
who wants to score in national exams .
i guess all of you want it too .
but not as badly as me .
it's important to me .
i'm really ; really , S O R R Y .
i may owe this to you , but i can't change my mind about this .


lame as it may be ,
i vow that i'll be a PROPER student till the end of PSLE .
just one more month .
just one more month . . .


P.S. today's trip to leeyann's WASN'T great at all , so i won't fill you in about it . besides going to daphne's for Wii ! rayman's AWESOMEEEE